感覺又看了遍失常 / 這種活著活著就不想活了的類型片一定會很快興盛起來 / 普萊蒙好像提喻法裡的霍夫曼/ Jake the Obscure/ 可能跟電影關係不大 抄anti-oedipus幾段話: “if desire is the lack of the real object, its very nature as a real entity depends upon an 'essence of lack' that produces the fantasized object” "there were a dreamed-of object behind every real object" "it's difficult for a child to
“The only valuable thing my dad left with me is pain, and you are going to take that away from me?” “Yes.” F***,我又碎了。现在想想骨头依然隐隐作痛,希亚拉博夫自我疗愈的方式竟然是扮演伤害他最深的父亲,受害者扮演加害者真的不会痛吗,他幻想父亲别过头来轻声说“I truly love you.”的时候该有多痛呢,我又会有多痛呢?我一定要被迫原谅吗,长大就要被迫去原谅吗?我能不去原谅吗?(我又开始胡言乱语自我代入了)